This year is speeding by.<\/p>\n
John and I had a great visit with my parents last weekend. They were kind enough to let me have a couple of paintings they purchased from traveling artists that were in Spain when we lived there. I love them, but wish they would have kept them for their enjoyment. I know my dad is trying to clear things out, less to clean and care for. I just want to be sure they are both enjoying their home still. And as usual, I wish they lived closer. I miss seeing them, and they live quite far away. Between work and stupidcancer, it has gotten even harder to schedule time to visit. My goal is to get down there at least 4 times a year, even if it is just for a night. I am trying to convince them to move into the neighborhood. Pretty sure it will never happen, but it would be nice.<\/p>\n
I have not been working out like I should. Part of it is that I started experiencing a little truncal lymphedema. I found some helpful videos to flush most of it out, and of course by the time I got into my oncologist, it had pretty much disappeared. (just like that noise your car makes until you take it in to the shop.)\u00a0 I also keep getting more of those little red spots. She referred me to physical therapy, and dermatology.\u00a0 The dermatologist is pretty sure\u00a0 the tiny blood spots are directly related to the chemo and the tamoxifen, but not to any lymphomas or other cancers that those treatments can cause. I really hope he is right. I have been scared outta my bloody mind. Now I am just slightly less so. I am looking forward to PT. I need guidance on how to work through things without doing any damage. I am not confident enough to lift any weights without possibly causing LE or any other mess.<\/p>\n
My side effects from the tam have not gotten any better. I keep waiting, but, I have a feeling that they are not going anywhere. As long as I don’t get bc again or have mets, I will happily continue to sweat all night. I do wish the pain in my joints would piss off though. And my neuropathy could really go away any time it feels like it too. Though, that is getting better.\u00a0 I hope to start sewing again next week maybe.<\/p>\n
We will be starting on Johns office this weekend. Moving everything out and taping it all up in prep for scraping the ceiling and painting. We will be doing the hall as well. Messy! But it will be great to get that done. After that, we will move to the utility room (making it a juicy 70’s orange!) Then the hall and the study. All the while trying to figure out how to build the scaffolding we need to work on the living room and foyer, which will also be used outside when we get ready to redo the siding. If there is time, then I will work on the master bathroom- if I can at least get all the ugly wallpaper down, I’ll be happy.\u00a0 I wish I could have seem this place when it was first built. I bet the decor was better.<\/p>\n
We’ve been talking about bringing the wall out from the bathroom, as we want to change the windows in the master bedroom to be french doors and move them over. That however, will require serious masonry work. I still can’t figure out why on earth they built this room this way. It is really weird. I am hoping we can add a little window like we have in the hall bath, and maybe add the same kind of windows on the wall where our bed will be. The plan is to make a little patio out front and putting up an iron fence all the way around for privacy. We shall see. I keep forgetting to buy lotto tickets. I will be doing that tomorrow. If we could just win enough to pay someone to do all the grunt work\/buy all the supplies, I wold be super happy. I’d like to get all of it done in 10 years, including the upstairs office John wants to build. I know I will never see him once that gets built, but, hey! at least I will have a real guest room then, right?\u00a0 Maybe I should make him make a space for my work computer as well. \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n
I just would like to get my current office organized! I will be scheduling 2 days in March to take everything out and getting it all straightened out. Feb. and March are super busy times for me for sure! Gotta get the yard cleaned out too. OMG I am overwhelming myself right at this second just thinking about it all!!!!! SO much to do!<\/p>\n
Our bread maker is working out well. Having fresh bread is great, and there really isn’t much work involved. I am slowly learning how to make things myself that I used to buy in the store. It is kind of a pain in the ass, but the fact that I can’t have soy has forced many changes in my life. I even found a recipe for thin mints! Have not tried it yet, but if they are good I will post it.<\/p>\n
I will say that cancer and my treatment have brought some good things with all the bad. My thumb is finally healed and I have not messed with it since. My hair is coming in curly. I am thinking more carefully about food and beverages. I am re-evaluating what I want out of my life and how to achieve those things. I am making my happiness a priority. I want to do more for others. That last one comes not only from a desire to help, but also so that I am not forgotten once I am gone. I don’t have kids. I never will. But if I can touch the lives of many, maybe someone will remember me when I am gone. I won’t be just a comma in the book of life. I at least want to be an exclamation point, or even a whole word.<\/p>\n
All right! it is past my bedtime, and I need to get up early tomorrow to go visit my BFF! YAY!<\/p>\n
Everyone be safe out there.<\/p>\n
love you.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
This year is speeding by. John and I had a great visit with my parents last weekend. They were kind enough to let me have a couple of paintings they purchased from traveling artists that were in Spain when we lived there. I love them, but wish they would have kept them for their enjoyment. I know my dad is trying to clear things out, less to clean and care for. I just want to be sure they are both enjoying their home still. And as usual, I wish they lived closer. I miss seeing them, and they live quite far away. Between work and stupidcancer, it has gotten even harder to schedule time to visit. My goal is to get down there at least 4 times a year, even if it is just for a night. I am trying to convince them to move into the neighborhood. Pretty sure it will never happen, but it would be nice. I have not been working out like I should. Part of it is that I started experiencing a little truncal lymphedema. I found some helpful videos to flush most of it out, and of course by the time I got into my oncologist, it had pretty much disappeared. (just like that noise your car makes until you take it in to the shop.)\u00a0 I also keep getting more of those little red spots. She referred me to physical therapy, and dermatology.\u00a0 The dermatologist is pretty sure\u00a0 the tiny blood spots are Continue Reading →<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-376","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.super-crush.com\/blahblahblah\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/376","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.super-crush.com\/blahblahblah\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.super-crush.com\/blahblahblah\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.super-crush.com\/blahblahblah\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.super-crush.com\/blahblahblah\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=376"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.super-crush.com\/blahblahblah\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/376\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":377,"href":"http:\/\/www.super-crush.com\/blahblahblah\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/376\/revisions\/377"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.super-crush.com\/blahblahblah\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=376"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.super-crush.com\/blahblahblah\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=376"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.super-crush.com\/blahblahblah\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=376"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}