unremarkable!

My uterus is unremarkable? What? How dare you!

That is apparently what you want to hear when you have it checked though. Due to the tamoxifen treatment, it is advised to get a baseline ultrasound so that if you start having any unusual issues, there is something to look back at. Fingers crossed that it stays unremarkable.

My saw my GP and Onc. on Monday. Both appointments went well. My onc did not seem too concerned with these little red dots I have all over me though. They look like tiny little blood spots or chiggers, but they don’t itch, and are not raised at all.  I have a follow up in 2 months with blood work to see if something is going on. Also having my cholesterol checked again, as the tamoxifen can raise it. Seriously- this shit better keep me from having any recurrence or it spreading.

I am sitting here watching Craig, and Chris Pine is on. He’s very witty. I had no idea his dad was http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0683986/    I hope they get back to basics with the next Star Trek movie. I was very disappointed with the rehashing of scenes in Into Darkness. This is supposed to be a different timeline/universe so I think it was so lazy of them to do that. I think it hindered the story, and eclipsed the talent they had at hand. I still loooooove the 2009 movie though. I could watch it a million times. If you know me, you know I’m a big Trekkie.

Speaking of the talent, I am so excited that the new Sherlock is this Sunday! Right after a new Downton Abby! It will be a great 2 hours of television! I love both shows and to get to have them on the same nights for the next few weeks will be fantastic!!

I am also really enjoying Almost Human and Sleepy Hallow on Monday nights.  TV sure is full of really hot men right now.  I mean- Benedict Cumberbatch,  Karl Urban, Allen Leech, Michael Ealy, Tom Mison … the Sun/Mon prime time line up is mighty prime. *le sigh*

I need to get on my treadmill more consistently. At least every other day for an hour. And though I am getting a little better with my diet, I still have a long way to go. Old habits are hard to break. It is weird: I never had an issue quitting cigarettes, never did any drugs that I couldn’t walk away from, don’t have an issue not drinking very often, and would quit completely if my doctor said to, but sugar, sugar is a beast. A big, evil, delicious beast that is constantly on my mind. I wish I could afford to go to some remote sugar detox camp somewhere for a month or 2 (if such a thing even exists. If it does, it should be somewhere beautiful and spa-ish though.)  The PCOS doesn’t help at all, and it is a catch-22. It makes me crave more than the average person, I eat it, which makes the PCOS worse, etc. It is a terrible cycle that I will break. I have to get myself fit, and as healthy as possible. I feel fat, weak, ugly, unfeminine, and tired. I want to feel fit, strong, beautiful, and girly again. It has been a long time since I have, and having a concave chest and really short hair and a double chin is not helping my confidence at all. Staying on track and positive is my goal. I have given myself a year to get to the size I want to be. That means I need to lose about a 10 year old child. Fo realz.  So- more veggies, less sugar, and more exercise. That is just how it is if I want to get to where I want to be.

Anyone have any favorite exercises or veggie dishes they want to share? Please do!

John and I will be starting work on the house again in February. We will be working on his office. That should be quick hopefully. If we work on it every day we are home, I think we can do it in 2 weeks. That is moving everything out, taping it off, scraping the ceiling, patching anything that needs it, and then painting. I wish we could just take a couple of months off and do the whole house. Stupid cancer threw us off our schedule. I was hoping that by now everything would be painted and the tile in the living room and hall would be in. I’ve tried to make it a little more homey in here, but I still feel like I am living in a college dorm. It is aggravating. Anyhow- we’ve got to get as much done as possible before my next surgery. I will be down for up to 16 weeks with that. The first half of that is pretty rough as far as I have heard.

I am super excited to get out into the yard, but am scared of the lymphedema possibility. I have to be very careful now. I am so clumsy and have always had the ‘just get it done’ kind of attitude when working on something, and always end up injuring myself. Now I have to wear my compression sleeves and gloves, work gloves, long sleeved heavy shirts, plenty of mosquito repellant, and be very mindful of every move I make. I love my roses and working on them will be a real dance. I’ve also always been a sweller anyway. I am not sure I will be able to tell if I am getting lymphedema! This will be a very interesting way to live, for sure. Tomorrow I am going to spend part of the day doing some cleaning up out there. Not much, as we still have some freezes ahead (Ihope) but enough to get started so we can set up a better composting system area. I want to put it right next to the spot that jerky behind us neighbors put their smoker, but that also puts it right where we have our umbrella and will have some nice furniture. Sure wish that guy would move.

Shortly after that I will be tackling the front island again. Those nandina roots won’t just disappear, unfortunately, and I want to put something pretty in before summer. I anyone feels like coming over to do some digging, just let me know 🙂

The past few days have been so nice outside. I wish the cedar were not so bad. Normally I would open the windows up, but even I have cedar fever this year. It is the highest it has ever been. So crazy! You walk outside and are instantly coated in pollen. Hopefully it will die down soon, and we will have a few more hard freezes to kill of the bugs, and then it will be open window weather!

Well,, enough rambling from me.  Hope you are all well, and that I get to see you more often this year.

 

love you!

 

 

 


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