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Shit. how is it already Xmas???

This year has lasted forever and flashed by like lightning. I am, as usual, unprepared. I will say this for working retail: I hated it, but I had all my gifts bought and wrapped before October. I have about half of my list done this year. Ya, ya- I had a little bit of an excuse, but I just feel like a lazy oaf.

I think that might be the thing that I hate most about cancer. I have things to do. I want to do them. I have the tools/items to get it done. And I have just been so freaking exhausted all the time. First it was chemo, then steroid withdraw, then surgery, now tamoxifen. The only time I had any energy through all of this is when I was on all the roids. I wish there was something that gave you that kind of energy, but would not kill you. Maybe some gene splicing with chihuahua?  😉

I have, of course, been weeping all week. It does not help that the net is full of sweet stories of amazing people, dying children, and abused animals. It does not help that I can’t be with my family. It does not help that I can’t offer my help to everyone that needs it. It does not help that the 11th Doctor is leaving. (I haven’t even caught up to Matt yet except for a few chosen episodes and I am crying about it.)

John helps. All of you-  my chosen family that are near to me, help. I wish transporters would hurry up and get invented already. I wanna be able to beam over and give hugs and love to those I love in a flash. Star Trek has ruined me!!

Speaking of ST… I have been building my collection of ST and Star Wars tree ornaments. I went a little crazy this year. Didn’t get them all, but did get a Captain Archer- which had on the posting ” Captain Archer on his space toilet?”  How could I not give them my money?  I loved Enterprise a LOT, but his chair really looked like a commode.

As usual, I have to work Xmas eve and day. Because, you know, we are so busy. (Can you hear the sarcasm?) For every year I have been there, we are slow as shit for those 2 days. It is the following 2 weeks that the shit hits the fan. And what did they alter our schedules for? New years. Like- who would rather have that off than Xmas? Certainly not me! I will be celebrating, but I get off at 1030- more than enough time to go out. Instead I get to work till 1030 on Xmas eve, then some idiotic 330 (or 5pm, they still haven’t told us really) to midnight or 2am shift Xmas day, and  have to get up 5 hours early to work  NYE- so I will be too fucking tired to celebrate the end of this year anyhow. Thanks a whole lot whatever moron decided that was a good idea. I hope they get punched in the face on NYE. Twice. And lose a tooth. It would also be best if I got to do it.

I am looking forward to wearing my “Die Hard” sweatshirt tomorrow. if you haven’t watched it in a while- go do that right now! It is one of the best holiday movies ever made in all of history.

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Tomorrow I will be having that, and some other holiday movies on while I work. It is good to have fun background media while you chat with ppl across the globe that don’t give a rats about anything.

After work I am heading to the BOOZERS!!! Yay! I may not get to see my blood family, but they are my surrogate family and are some of the best folks I have ever met in my entire life and I am SO lucky to have them! They’ve really welcomed me into their lives- no questions asked, just love. It is awesome. I really want them and my family to all meet. I need to plan a dinner at my place or something this spring.

Speaking of- so excited that the boys from the UK are coming to visit (hopefully) in May! WOOOOT! Everyone cross your fingers that it all works out. I love these fellas so much. They are as sweet as can be and also just welcomed me into their lives without a second thought. They were also super great sports about watching weird movies and dressing up for Halloween as Team Zissou without much of a fuss 🙂 I love you Jason and Steven! Can’t wait to have you here! I hope the heat stays at bay till they go back home. Otherwise- they may not come back!  And lordy how I want to go back to the UK and Europe. I really feel more at home there. The weather is so much better!

Anyhow, as I may not get back to this till sometime in January due to all the overtime i should be working, i want to wish you a Merry Xmas, (or whatever holiday you enjoy, or don’t) and a very Happy and Healthy New Year. I love you all very much and hope that things are good all the way around in 2014, and that we all get to spend more time with those we love.

Take care, drive safe, and have a designated. If you don’t for some reason and find yourself within 30 miles of me- contact me and I will come drive you home. If you are farther away, still contact me and I will help you figure out a way home that does not involve you driving.

 

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